There is a very big difference between accidentally knocking
off the lighted lamp from the lamp stand and lighting up a candlestick and
putting it underneath the curtain. What is more annoying is after putting the
latter underneath the curtain, the person responsible says “I’m leaving the
house for a while and you go and see what happens…”. There’s a violent reaction
lurching deep within, wanting to shout out “For heaven’s sake, what has gotten
into your mind???” I am trying to filter the words that I want to use as I write
this blog. But from within, there is much inner rage wanting to be unleashed.
Punches and holes on the wall are far different from burning the whole house
down. My mind had been searching for mental fire trucks to soak the blaze of
thought that eats up my inner calmness. Playing with fire is never meant to be
done inside the house.
I hate all that is happening right now. Unfortunately, I
am restricted in expressing the rage that is inside my mind. My prayer is that
through this writing, my distraught heart and emotion would find tranquility
eventually and that I would not go crazy at the end of the day. There is no
bigger enemy than the one that resides deep within…ego…and it could really
start a fire…Did someone took some Vitamin I pills and say "It's all manageable..."? I hope somebody called the firefighters already.
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